[oh no. he knows what rote 'can i go yet' reactions sound like and that means he's made things worse instead of better. this isn't what he wanted! PANIC MODE, HOW FIX?!]

That was pushing too far, sorry. Forget it.

[three seconds after sending: NO YOU PROBABLY JUST MADE IT EVEN WORSE]

[follow-up: ] I'm not angry with you. Please don't think that.

[FUCK NO THAT SOUNDS SO DUMB WHY DID HE EVEN SEND THAT]

[follow-up follow-up: ] Pretend I'm good at this.

[why can't he be good at this. this is the worst. face in hands what is his life]