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[healspec]

All that is on the outside. [also he has, like, three friends. and two of them are a pretty recent development.]

On the inside I still am like you, but in smaller ways.

[gunhearted]

but thats wrong

i mean maybe its true

i mean it's not true because you already helped me out a lot or i woudlvefailed my classes so i guess thats an outside thing i dont know

but you seem like a good kind of person so you shouldn't feel bad.

[healspec]

If I told you why you shouldn't always feel bad, would that make it stop?

[the answer is no. he knows that. he's asking as a way to demonstrate that this is coming from the same place for both of them. that it's not rational and you can't be talked out of it. that it's still there, even if others can't or won't see it.]

[gunhearted]

im sorry i dont knoww hat else tos ay.

im really really bad with worsds

[healspec]

It's fine. [actually the truth for once!] I'm not upset.

It's not rational to feel bad all the time. I know that, but that does not make it go away.

[gunhearted]

[Uggggh all Jacuzzi can feel now is that there's absolutely no hope omg.]

im sorrt.

[healspec]

['don't feel bad about it,' he almost says, but catches himself. in context, not a useful thing to say.]

It's fine. You don't need to apologize. [again.]

[gunhearted]

but i do i didn't mean to say something stupid.

[healspec]

Neither did I. So we are even.